Every answer I’ve found came with another question.

Right now I’m asking: Questions about Nepal, power, development and the world, and who gets to answer them.

Hi, I’m Jyotsana, and I’m always in my head.

This is where I write about politics, development, international relations and society. People tend to think the ones who write are the smart ones. I’m the opposite. I write because I’m looking for answers, and the best way I know to find them is to put my thinking out here and hope smarter people write back.

I won’t pretend to have it all figured out. I’d rather show you what I’m thinking and ask what you see.

  1. KathmanduWhere I grew up, and first learned to look
  2. MelbourneInternational studies at ACU and RMIT
  3. LeidenA semester of security, international law and human rights

How I got here

1

Learning to look

My dad has a way of making a point without lecturing. From when I was small, he told me there was a whole other life outside my privilege, outside the roof, the meals and the school I never had to worry about. Then, instead of just telling me, he showed me. He took me travelling across Nepal, to places where children my age worked before school, or worked instead of school.

I never really stopped travelling after that. As an early teenager I lived in Bangladesh for almost a year, with new streets, a new language, a new religion around me and the same questions. Later I travelled alone to Malaysia and Indonesia for conferences, a young Nepali girl in rooms full of people who were older, louder and more certain than me.

Everywhere I went, I ended up doing the same thing. I watched. I noticed who gets a seat and who stands, who is spoken to and who is spoken about. The countries and languages were different, but the pattern of who gets left behind was the same.

For a while, I tried to answer that with what I had. I started selling my art at 15 and gave the money away. As a teenager I taught art to students at a school in Kailali, and in my gap year I volunteered with children diagnosed with autism. All of it mattered to me, but I kept feeling it wasn’t enough. Giving money or time helps a few people for a little while. It doesn’t change why they needed help in the first place.

So I chose to use the one privilege that could reach further: my education. If I got to study, I could learn the language of the systems that shape these lives, and speak for the people those systems forget.

Why did I get to be a child, when so many of them didn’t? That question is where all of this began.

2

Two continents, one notebook

I took that question with me to Melbourne. At the Australian Catholic University and then RMIT, I studied politics, development, human rights and law. Then I spent a semester at Leiden University in the Netherlands, studying global security, international law and human rights a short train ride from The Hague, home of the courts that are meant to make those rights real.

I loved those classrooms. But I noticed who was doing the talking. We’d discuss migration, conflict, aid and “the Global South”, and too often the Global South was the case study, never the voice.

So I put my hand up. A lot.

3

Outside the syllabus

Some of the most important things I’ve learned were never on a reading list. Being new in a country teaches you quickly how a system treats people who don’t yet know its rules. I learned it as a teenager in Bangladesh, and again as an international student in Australia.

That’s partly why I became a peer mentor at RMIT, helping students who arrived feeling as lost as I once did. It taught me that belonging isn’t something you’re given. It’s something people build for each other.

I still spend a lot of time just watching: people, systems, and the quiet gap between how things are supposed to work and how they actually do.

They called me the South Asian Dragon.

Somewhere in my Australian classrooms, that became my name. I’m still not sure whether it was a compliment or a warning. Probably both.

It happened because I couldn’t let things slide. Whenever a discussion assumed the world looks the way it does from Canberra, Washington or Brussels, I asked what it looks like from Kathmandu, Dhaka, or a refugee camp in Cox’s Bazar. I wasn’t trying to win arguments. I was trying to make the room bigger.

I wear the name proudly now. Honestly, this website is the dragon with a blog.

Why “A Question Remains”

I’m a curious person. I have far more questions than answers, because I’m still the one looking for them.

Every time I think I’ve figured something out about Nepal, about power, about how the world works, a new perspective walks in and rearranges everything. I’ve stopped seeing that as failure. It’s the whole point.

So I won’t hand you conclusions. I’ll think out loud, show my working, and leave the door open.

Answers change. A question always remains.

What I write about

Four big themes, one South Asian lens, and a habit of following the question wherever it goes.

Politics

Power, protest and democracy, and the people they’re supposed to serve, in Nepal and beyond.

Development

Aid, inequality, migration, and the distance between the plan on paper and life in the village.

International relations

Small states and big neighbours, international law, human rights and security.

Society

Culture, identity, religion, gender, and the everyday lives the headlines skip.

Disagree with me. Please.

The best conversations I’ve had started with someone saying “I see it differently.” If something here makes you think, argue, or remember a story of your own, write to me. The curious and the furious are both welcome.

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